Degil kan??

Theres something about me that really pissed me off lately. Im a stubborn cold-hearted person ever live! Im blessed with so many people who are genuinely care & love me. But yet Im still stubborn in my own way. Theres something so dark inside of me that keeps rejecting anything, in fact, EVERYTHING, that other people said that is opposite to what Im thinking. I should've taken it in a positive way but then, this stupid me will always say the other way round. Im so fucked up. I so hope I can just throw this piece of me far away.

I need help.

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