Oct 2, 2011

My productive weekend

Alhamdulillah.. Just got back from SEMPOI. A program organized by Malaysian Association from Manipal. Now tengah berehat2 lepas perut kenyang melantak at the camp before bergerak balik ke Mangalore. Gosh my English is so terrible kan? Depressed! (-_-') 

Honestly, I must say, I didnt expect this program would be so inspirational to me in the first place. True. I wasnt that excited to come sbb tah la. Maybe I put negative thoughts that it would be so boring sbb datang dgr ceramah je. Pastu dengar orang cakap penceramah ni ustaz yang tulis buku femes jugaklah kat Malaysia. I was like okaaayy aku mesti tak kenal punya. Thats why it didnt excite me. And the most thing that I hate is to berLDK(Latihan Dalam Kumpulan). Tatau asal. Malas bercampur dgn orang kot.(There must be something wrong with me. Haihsss) But after this 2 and a half days I feel so bad cause of giving those bad thoughts to the program before it eved started. Memang aku ni ada masalah dalaman diri kot. T-T

It was held at Summersand Beach Resort in Ullal,Mangalore. Dekat je. We started our journey on Friday evening and after around half an hour later we finally reached the place. Dengan rasa berat hati dan tak seronoknya pergi la register, check in chalet blablabla. Sampai la opening ceremony malam tu. Ustaz Hasrizal pun mula perkenalkan diri and bg intro sket2. And I enjoyed the way he speaked that night. At first I thought he's going to be so strict and cakap pasal agama je. But he was totally the opposite. And I really enjoyed.

So the next day we had a few slots which he motivate us about how do you find your self. Basically his speech was a description from what Stephen R. Covey wrote in his book "7 Habits of Highly Effective People". I found it very useful especially Im now still in the era of finding myself and how to take control of myself. Memang sgt inspirational that I want to associate everything that is formulated to myself. Mungkin jgk dgn cara Ustaz sampaikan speech dia memang bagus sampai boleh buat aku rasa macam tu kot. Allahualam. Tapi I think that is enough for me to make a jumpstart to change and take charge of myself.

Alhamdullilah, I gathered a few things from the program and all of it are good things. Let it be from all the ceramahs and LDKs, I hope I can apply them in my daily life. Not just until I complete my BDS, but the afterwards and insyaAllah troughout my life. I realise that Ive been doing so much wrongs in life and I need to mend it one by one. I hope all the people around me can help me point out my mistakes and try to correct me as well. 

These are those 7 habits that I can sum up from the slots taken by Ustaz:
1-Be proactive: gain control of what you can control
2- Begin with the end in mind: get clear view on the goal in whatever that you do
3- Put first thing first: as clear as the statement is, set your priority right
4- Think win-win: have to have the ability to give & take in any situations
5- Seek first to understand and then to be understood: not to get too jumpy in things, but chill and try to understand and appreciate the difference
6- Synergize: ability to sychronize self with anything, anybody
7- Sharpen the saw: every human has 4 parts(physical, intellectual, spiritual and emotional) which need to feed and grow. In order to do so all the other habits need to be encouraged and to be practised by self.

p/s: This was so beneficial experience that I would never trade it with anything!

Aug 22, 2011

Same old same old

Waaahhh!! Pejam celik pejam celik tinggal berapa hari je lagi nak habis Ramadhan ni. It is pretty sad that this holy month will soon gonna leave us behind. Thinking of how much amal I have done throughout this month make me even sad. Tiba2 rasa marah kat diri sendiri sebab before masuk Ramadhan dah janji dgn diri sendiri kalau boleh nak khatam kan satu al-Quran, qiam kalau boleh nak buat tiap2 malam, but in the end Im still being the same old me. Sedih sangat! I thought Ive changed tapi tak. Sama je lagi. I thought Im now a better  person. Im not. Masih lagi dengan masalah lama, buat benda2 yang sgt wasting time plus tak mendatangkan apa2. Dosa lagi ada!


I came across Maria Elena's new entry just now. She was saying something about how Muslimah nowadays, especially in Malaysia, are getting too busy chasing their dreams on who's becoming most fashionable, most trendy, most pretty. Most of them, including me, forget that a true Muslimah is the one who knows how to cover themselves up and not being too exposed. Tengok je lah skrg berapa byk style org pakai baju, pakai hijab sume. Ada plak yg wat lookbook acc tu semata2 nak tunjuk the way dia dressup. Ada yg elok tu mmg elok. Tutup aurat. Tudung labuh cover dada. But how about some of the rest? 

Im nobody to say whose ways are right, whose are wrong pun. Even me,myself are still new with covering my aurat, wearing hijab and so on. I swear I tell you Im still learning. But bila pikir balik the way how I carry myself after started wearing hijab ni tak la beza mana pun dgn how I was when I havent started wearing pun. Sama je nampak. Pakai baju sleeves 3 1/4 lagi. Apekah?? Tudung see-through kadang2 sampai nampak leher. Waddeee?? Seriously mmg dh lama perasan tapi sendiri wat derk je. Dalam pale pikir ala janji tutup rambut. Mula la rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding kuat2 skrg ni. Dian.. Dian..

Anyhoo.. Memandangkan tinggal berapa hari je lagi nak habisnya Ramadhan, I once again want to make a promise to myself. I want to be a good Muslimah from now on. InsyaAllah. What promise I want to make let it be only Allah & me who knows. I dont believe people can change over night but kalau kita tak lupa untuk doa to Allah to open our hearts, in God's will, anything can happen. Kan? If any of you see me doing things yang agak tersasar dari jalan yang benar tu dont hesitate to tegur me. I'll accept any of your advice. But sama2 kena beringatlah. Bila kita nak tegur orang, tak semestinya besok jugak dia berubah. Mungkin akan amek masa. And most importantly how we tegur someone tu kan. Janganlah kau nak tegur dia buat salah kau lagi pergi tunjal2 kepala dia. Cam dia sorg je paling berdosa kann.. Berpada2 la..

Until then.


p/s: Oh I came across this one pic someone reblog it kat Tumblr. An ad about hijab. Cool. But full of meaning. Check it.

Aug 14, 2011

London and I

Okay2 before anybody starts reading this(eh ada ke?) just keep in mind that this post was meant to be posted about ages ago. Just for a simple fact that saya seorang yang malas utk update blog, tetapi masih keen untuk menulis juga. So please bare with me. Terima kasih. :)

So Im back from my holidays. Seperti biasa I got all tanned up sebab gatal gi cuti time summer kan. But all in all this was among the best holiday Ive ever had, I must say. Tour around Europe, meet new people, enjoy new culture etc2.. Thought of having a sum up of all my trips. Harap bertenang.

Our journey started from Mumbai to Paris which took about 10 hours including a transit in Zurich,Swiss. We took a midnight flight from Mumbai and reached Paris in the morning. Sampai je Paris around 9am local time lepak je kat airport CDG tu wait for our bus to London. Lucky we had our tickets all sort out before sampai so takde lah hal nak kena beli tiket dan2 jugak. Plus org2 kat France ni kelaka skit. Dorg cm pelik tgk org ckp English. Maklumlah, like everybody knows, French people mmg sgt proud of their language. For them the world revolves around them so dorg bajet sume org kena tahu bahasa dorg. Tunggu bus sampai around tgh hari. Bus sampai a bit lambat but takpe la tunggu je la. Dgn pagi tu hujan renyai2 je suhu pun agak mencengkam jiwa gak la. Sabar je la. Bus pun sampai. Bus ok la. But there was a bit ketidakpuashatian dgn system bus tu. Ada pulak free seating in the bus. Dah la our stop was the last pickup point yang that bus took. So imagine lah bus tu dah mmg penuh, dgn ktorg dua je pompuan yang agak blur2 masuk bus tgk tmpt duduk cm xde. Dah la omputih ni selekeh sket perangai. Bus mmg nampak sgt pathetic dgn masyarakat dlm bus tu yg hidup tunggang terbalik. Rasa nak nangis je ingat kn there are no vacant seats left for us. Nasib baik lah ada makhluk Tuhan baik hati duduk tempat lain bagi ktorg seat dia so that we both can sit close. 

It took us about 7 hours to reach London from Paris. The coolest thing was we get to cross English channel by going through an undersea tunnel! I was a bit excited that time coz in my mind like 'Wow! Best gila nanti leh nampak ikan2 berenang2 kt tingkap bla3'. Yeah I know Im a bit jakun but damn right I was! Tapi sebenarnya takde pun. Dah kata masuk tunnel kan so pemandangan kat tingkap pun sebenarnya gelap je la. But the other cool thing was the bus we were riding actually got into a train which masuk into that tunnel. Cool kot bus dalam train! Haha. It took us about 1 hour dalam tunnel train tu then we continue back our journey to London. 

 Driver bus yang sangat hebat dapat masukkn bus in a such narrow space. Kagum dgn driver bus seluruh dunia!

Si jakun

We reached the UK then we headed straight to London. Sampai Victoria Station nasib baik we knew this one uncle yg sangat baik he helped us out to get to Malaysia Hall/MSD- the place we stayed during in London. Sampai2 station Bayswater tu cm lipas seret bag punyalah laju sebab takut kaunter MSD tutup. Sbb masa call tu dia kata counter tutup pukul 9pm. Jam kat tangan dah pukul 8.30pm. Dgn tak tahu kat mana MSD tu lagi mmg kelam kabut lah jadi tourists sesat kat area yang aman damai tu. Finally jumpa pun muka pintu MSD. Tingtong2 takde sape bukak. Pintu pun kunci. Gasak! Tengok jam kat tangan belum lg pukul 9pm! Suddenly one guy came out of nowhere tanya ktorg dtg nak check in ke. Dia cakap skg tgh tutup sbb tgh dinner. Jap lagi pukul 8 bukak balik. Terbingung lah kejap kat situ. Tadi rasa tengok jam dah pukul 8.30pm. Tiba2 rasa nak smash muka sendiri. Rupa2nya jam kat tangan tu set to Paris time! Paris lambat sejam dari UK. Cam hampeh je rasa jalan sampai nak cabut kaki tadi! Haih.

And finally we got checked-in. Finally jumpa katil setelah lebih kurg dua hari perjalanan from Mumbai to Paris to London. The room was simple yet cozy for us bacpackers. Murah sangat bilik dia. We were considered lucky sebab book bilik awal2 coz that time was peak season. Orang yg walk-in je nak masuk mmg jawabnya g tido hotel je la. So we stayed there for 2 nights. One more malam we had to find another place to stay sbb mmg rules kat MSD tu dia boleh bagi 2 malam je per person. Sbb ramai org lain lagi dh book bilik sume. We ended up one night in Mara House which a lil bit expensive than MSD. Tapi tu je tempat yang agak safe for us girls so layan je lah. Dari duduk hostel campur ngn mat saleh mabuk lagi naya.


Hari pertama di kota London. We went out not so quite early morning. Took a stroll in Hyde Park. Dekat je ngan MSD so ktorg pun menapak aje. Jalan punya jalan terserempak dgn sorg pakcik Melayu. So tegur lah dia. Pakcik Alam Shah namanya. Smart betol dia dgn sunglass hitam dia pakai pulak topi ala2 berkelah tepi pantai tu. Walhal nak berjalan gi pasar ikan je! Hahaha. Katanya dia kat London ni teman isteri dia kerja. So kerja dia hari2 jadi surisuami la. Kemas2 umah sikit, beli barang2 dapur gitu la. Comel kan? Ktorg pun xde plan apa pagi tu so saje la ikut dia. Lagipun seronok borak ngan Pakcik Alam. Dia cam ayah yang baik. Ktorg pun menapak la agak jauh juga then sampai la kat pasar. Dia belanja minum sume. Borak2, bagi nasihat. Macam lepak ngan ayah sendiri lah. Mmg best Pakcik Alam tu. Dah selesai dia beli barang dapur dia tu dia pun balik. Tinggal lah kami berdua untuk explore the city of Lonon all by ourselves.

We paid for the hop-on-hop-off tourbus. Nice la we bought the ticket for one day trip. Ticket tu valid for a day je tapi kami telah membuat perkara agak keji the next day tu. Eheh. Sebab mana tak. On the day we got the ticket, ktorg habiskan banyak gila masa kat Madame Tussauds alone. Tempat lain banyak lagi x sempat nak cover. Ticket dh la valid satu hari je. Tiba2 cm terdapat idea 'eh everytime kte naik bus ni kan takde sape pun check ticket kan. Kalau org tu tak beli ticket pun boleh je naik bus ni' Maka dari situ la tertimbul niat jahat kami. Haih. Malu nak cerita tapi biarlah. Haha. And so we used the same tickets for the next day. Jahat kan? Tak lah. Tak lah jahat mana. Tak kantoi pun tauu.. Eheh.

With Mr Handsome :)

My soul sistah! :D

 Marble Arch

 Trafalgar Square

 The parliament & Big Ben

 London Eye

London Bridge

Sempat la tour around London. Mmg best kat sana. Despite their antique architectures I mmg suka London. Dont know why. Shopping best. Makan best. Orang2 dia best. Tah la rasa nak pegi lagi. Shopping in Oxford Street mmg heaven! Nak pergi lagiiiii!!!! Haih. But of course. Never try to convert it to our money la kn. Mmg la mahal kan. But still affordable la for accessories freak like me. Nak kahwin pastu pindah London please. Teehee. Anyhow.. Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri. Lebih baik negeri sendiri kan. I was thankful that we were there before riot kat London tu begins. Everybody was worried. Mmg sedih sgt tgk nasib adik Asyraf Haziq yang kena assault tu. Bulan puasa pulak tu. Mmg besar dugaan dia. Alhamdulillah dia pun dah ok skrg kan.

Erm2 apa lagi. Oh we spent 2 free days kat London before starting our trip dgn Kelana Convoy. The day we supposed to gather for the pick-up tu cam eksaited je sbb tengok ramai gila orang Malaysia. Haha. There were two coaches, one was a doubledecker. Mmg setiap lapisan masyarakat yang join trip KC ni. Dari ke baby sampai lah ke golongan tua. Mmg seronok. Coach yg dua tingkat tu untuk yg berfamily. Yang satu lagi tu utk golongan2 muda yang kacak jelita la. Haha. Masuk2 bus tu kami dua pilih seats depan. Sebabnya Asma ada motion sickness. Dia pening kalau duduk belakang sgt. I pulak suka duduk dpn sbb leh tgk jalan raya kat depan. Tak suka sgt tgk tingkap tepi je.

 Our rides

Mulalah perjalanan kami meninggalkan London ke Belgium. We stopped at the chocolate factory. Untuk chocolate lovers mmg seronok lah org borong kat situ. As for me, I dint buy pun. Sekadar rasa sample je. Haha. Tapi skrg bila xah balik terasa agak menyesal sbb tak beli bawak balik! Darn. Sejuk kat Belgium tu. Time ktorg kat sana tgh hujan. Mmg menggegel2 la den kan. Time tu pakai a single layer of sweater je pulak. Haha.

Grrrr!! Menyesal sangattt!

So we continued our journey to Netherlands pulak. Sampai lah kat campsite nama dia Amsterdamse Bos. Yup! Mmg trip ngan KC ni tidur khemah je. Budget trip la kata. Mmg kelakar lah masing2 pasang tent hari tu. First day kan. Ada yang dah mmg pakar, ada yang terkedek2 baru belajar. Satu halnya lagi pulak, Amsterdam mmg selalu sgt hujan. Time ktorg pacak khemah tu pun dalam hujan. Can u imagine betapa payahnya?? Dgn sejuknya, basahnya. Mmg sangat tak selesa. Tapi seronok sbb ada kawan2 yang best. Oh lupa nak cerita. Tent ktorg share 3 orang. Me, Asma & one new friend, Aini. Dia sgt sweet. Boleh pulak kan ia ikut KC ni sorg2 je takde kawan pun. So ktorg pun ajak lah dia duduk tent sekali. So dari situ lah mula kenal. Sengal2 unta jugak dia. Tu yang best buat kawan tu. Hehe. So habislah sudah perjalanan kami di hari pertama. Selamatlah sudah aktiviti memacak khemah yang senget benget tu. Kami pun tidur lah dalam keadaan tak selesa tu. Cobaan .. Bak kata arwah P.Ramlee! Hahaha

to be continued..

Jul 9, 2011


Lama tak tulis kat sini. Cuti dah seminggu berlalu. But I dont quite feel the fun..yet. Maybe Im missing home now and then. Maybe I shouldnt go for this EuroTrip Ive been planning since so long. Maybe I miss a few people. I dont know. There's a lot of maybes. Lucky I have my roomie, Anum here with me. Tak de la bosan sangat. Though Ive been minding my own business je the whole time. Malas nak kacau dia with my lousy self. Hehe.

So here's what I do these past few days to kill my boredom.

I wake up around 8-ish (kill me I really am a morning person!). Then I grab my novel (its Ahadiat Akashah's Lagenda Budak Setan - God! Idk how long Ive been trying to finish this one.. Jiwang sgt kot?) Then I guling2 a bit till I fall asleep again. Then maybe bangun again around 10. If Im rajin enough, I make my breakfast. But usually I dont. Makan terus for tengah hari. Then the rest of the day is filled with watching TV or movie from my hard disk or go online. Yadayadayada.. So basically thats it! I know. Boohoo kan? Well.. :\

My final results gonna be out next week. Ya Allah please end my misery. I know how I did during the exam. But now I just serahkan everything to His power. I hope there'll be a good news for me this time. I was aiming for distinction back then but Alhamdulillah for the past two years I was blessed with first class results. Not much but Alhamdulillah.. Distinction this time? No such high hope. Tak tahu nak target berapa pun. Isk. I promise whatever it is Im gonna do better next semester. No more hanky panky.

Im going to Paris this coming Wednesday. And from there I'll be travelling almost all over Europe. It sounds exciting. Really. But lets just see hows my result going to be. Then I can sort out what I should feel for my trip. Harap semua jalan lancar. Tak ada aral yang melintang. Basically I just hope I dont get broke over there. Takde lah lagi minum air paip macam kat Turkey dulu. Haha seriously it was a laugh! Havent packed my bag yet though. Elok je lagi backpack berbalut plastik kat bucu dinding tu. Esok la kot I start sort out apa nak bawak.


Ok dah. Im way out of line. :(



May 20, 2011

Anger management 101

Whether Im simply too bored or I think about too much stuff lately, I dont know. But like it or not, I tend to be that emo kid you see in typical English movies with black eyeliner siting at the corner thinking everything in life suck. Yup thats me in this past few days. *Eh2 dramatik pulak engkau* Takde lah. Saje bikin cerita gempak. Tapi tu lah. Aku asek rasa nak menyumpah je lately. Tp dalam hati la. Sebab dalam hati tu la yang rasa lagi penat. Takde bahan nak disembur. Duk membara2 dalam hati je. Apekahhh?? Haihs

Ok2 so here are a few tips for emo kids (like moi) out there on how to deal with your anger. Ala2 bukak kelas giteww..

1 - Say nothing

As simple as it sounds. When you speak with anger you will definitely aggregate the situation and worser you might hurt the feelings of others. Betul la kan. Cuba kalau time tu kau tengah berapi, agak2 apa yang keluar dari mulut tu. Tak ke macam mulut naga kan. Abeh kau bakor orang keliling. Orang yang bagi respon baik kat kita pun otomatikly kita rasa benda tu negatif. So cara paling baik kita diam je. Being silent doesnt mean you lose. It gives time for you anger to leave you.

" When angry count to ten before you speak. If very angry, count to one hundred. "

2 - Be indifferent

Kadang2 memang wujud orang2 yang suka buat orang lain marah. Dialog dia lebih kurang cam ' lu ni saje bikin wa panas la bro! '. Kann.. Tak pun cam kata pepatah tu, bagai mencurah minyak ke dalam api. Memang ada makhluk macam ni. They find it pleasurable when they got people mad. However, if you can feel indifferent to them and their words then their words and actions will have no effect on you. One of the best thing is to feel like it is beyond your dignity to even notice them. Kau abaikan je dia nyah! Kalau hidup ni macam Facebook, kira kau pergi kat edit friends, kau tekan butang  remove, hilanglah dia dari hidup kau. Abes ceghite! Tak pun kalau they start to be provoking, kau buat bodoh je. Yes it is hard. But trust me. One way or another, they will start lose interest and leave you alone. 

3 - Excuse yourself

Yang ini pun penting. Agak2 bila kau rasa anger is coming your way try to take a step back. Use any reason in the world to excuse yourself. Like "Ahh! Tak ke mana pun kalau aku menyampah ngan kau, pakcik auto! Aku cakap Melayu kau cakap bahasa kels kau. Bazir karen je. Huh!". Even if there's a small pint of anger remain in your heart, your inner voice is helping distant you away front the emotion.

4 - Value peace

You have every right to be angry to someone,  but dont you know by getting angry with that person you will only lose one peace of mind. Islam pun sangat tekankan kedamaian dalam apa jua aspek kehidupan. Janganlah nak duk gaduh2 lagi2 kalau benda tu small matter je. So cintailah kedamaian ye kawan2..

5 - Try to understand

Try to understand those wo crossed your line. Dont worry about the feeling the need to defend youself. Mungkin dia pun tak sengaja buat kita marah ke, we cant say. If you remain calm and detached, they begin to feel guilty about what they did. Diorang sendiri akan tersedar apa diorang dah buat. They can get inspired by your example of your calmness. Subconsciously diorang pun boleh boleh terikut sama dengan cara kita.

6 - Distract yourself

Suppose someone has made you angry, focus yourself on something that makes you happy. Let it be anything, if you feel like baking, dancing, shopping then just go with it. Teringat pulak zaman kat SESERI dulu. Cikgu disiplin ktorg, Miss Maria, penah nasihat kat ktorg time tengah stress nak SPM, "ngkorang kalau dah tension sangat pergi sental baju kat bilik basuh. Kau bayangkan muka sape2 kau tak suka kat baju tu  kau tenyeh puas2. Baju pun basuh, hati pun senang." 

7 - Breathe deeply

The simple act of breathing will help considerably with romoving your anger.

8 - Smile

When we smile it defuse many negative situations. It helps. Plus it costs you nothing but effectively kurangkan ketegangan. Senyum sokmo ler!

9 - Come near to earth
Just like the electricty, we have to channel it down to earth. Our anger is also some kind of a current carrying high voltage energy. It is said that bila kita marah dan time tu tengah berdiri, duduklah. Kalau tengah duduk, baringlah. Come near to earth as we are all have been made of earth. Hence make yourself calm like the earth.

10 - Wudhu'

Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda yang mafhumnya : ”Dari ‘Atiah ia berkata , Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda ” Sesungguhnya marah itu daripada syaitan dan syaitan itu diciptakan daripada api dan sesungguhnya api itu terpadam dengan air, maka apabila salah seorang dari kamu marah, maka hendaklah ia berwuduk”. ( Riwayat Abu Daud)


May 19, 2011

The eyes cant see what the\mind cant see.

Im in a super bad mood. Dont know why. Dont ask why. I guess today was just another bad day. Dont you dare think its the same like a bad hair day. Its incomparable. Its like worst-than-bad day. I just need to sleep it off. 

May 17, 2011

Merapu dan what not.

"Exam is over baby!!"

Oh how much I wish I could say that. Well, Im done with my theory papers though. Final examnya belum lagi dongg.. Kadang2 I have a sick assumption. Bila paper theory abes je terus perasan cam dah abes semua! Padahal.. macam hebat sangat je kan nak pegi practicals without studying. Haizz. Biasa la tu kan. 

OKKKAAAYYY I know Im not that type of yang suka update my blog. I wish I was. But Im not. But I hope I will. But now I suddenly miss this blog. Dulu2 penah berangan nak rajin menulis. But tah la. Im just too lazy. Or maybe there's nothing drive me to write kot. Aiyaarrkk.

How to start ek.. Okay. First offol.. Im almost done with my 3rd BDS (insyaAllah). Yada2.. Tak abes dgn exam. But hell yeah! Thats my priority now pun kan. So waddaheck. Im kinda excited though thinking that Wow 3 down, 2 more to go yaww! There's this kind of rumour spreading around that India dental council is now considering to make 4+1 course like the previous batches. Like skrg ni my batch is the first batch yang diorg buat 5 years. No internship. Tah bila la agaknya nak tau result tu. I rasa ok je kalau nak ada internship tu balik. But from our seniors experience diorg cakap final year memang parah la sikit. Mana tak. Ada 2 parts. Each part subjects gila banyak. So hectic gila la. Every other month nak exam je. Pecah otak! But the best thing is despite that, after a year you already got that 'dentist' title. Pergi kerja je. No more classes, no more exams. Cam best la pulak. Plus I think its better if we have internship here cause from what I heard sini lagi banyak experience. Dentistry is not just about reading thick books. Its more toward developing your skills. So bagus sangat lah kan kalo dia buat inatership tu for us. I harap dapat. But if tak jadi then takpe la. At least I dont have to go head-banging on the wall baca buku je hari2. Penat woo.. Im pretty sure this little head of mind is not fit for that. Heh.

InsyaAllah this coming July I'll be going to Europe with my housemate, Asma. Anum tak join sebab.. Eheh. Ada la 'sebab' dia kan. Kalau tak mesti best. Homies gone wild, woohoo! LOL. Tickets sume siap book dah. Cuma tinggal sikit2 like our domestic tickets, international ID card tu yang kena settle kan. I hope everything goes well nanti. Excited uollss! Pas ni tah dapat merasa lagi ke tak kan..

Anywaysss.. Yesterday was my 3rd year anniversary with Mr. Bipbip. Haha. Takde celebrate2 pun. Jauh la katakan. Webcam pun tak. Busy baca buku(lah sangat hari ni takde exam pun) Hehe takpe la tu kan. Im sure he didnt mind. Cuz I didnt too. Balik December nnt la baru pikir nak buat apa. Ngee. I hope this better be a good one. Harap sampai ke jinjang pelamin. InsyaAllah. BAM! So out of a sudden kann.. I never spilled about my personal life in public. Well not here I guess. It sounds so wrong to let random people see through you. Though I do need to do some explanations to some people. But yeah I never like being that open. Period. Maybe not to you! HAHA

Ni mesti sebab Kak Wanie ni. Bagi aura pengantin baru dia pulak.. It was a pleasure having you at our home kak. Or should I say Mrs Joe? Oh tak2. Mrs Wanikam! LMAO!!! Wishing you all the best in the future. And may you be a good wife. Adeh skema bnor bunyinya.. Dush! ;) Bosannyaaa kurang dah member main netball petang2. Im sure all of us in Mangalore yang close to you would feel the same. I miss! I miss!

Okay now how to end this entry eh. Seriously. Rasa cam dumbo tak reti buat apa2. Haha. Kan besttt kalau dulu time SPM amek sastera. (Cam encik Bipbip tu patut la aku cair. Chett!) Takde la aku ni BM berkarat sangat. Perghh kau bajet English kau power sangat?? Dush kali kedua! Nak pegi revise Oral Path ni. Wish me luck kiddos!!

Till then.


p/s: Tiba2 i termiss my mama. Tiba2 I teringat once I called her after I went sarees hunting(time tu sibuk niaga kain Kak Kiah!) I told her about the kain I bot. There were some orange, redyellow.. Then mama was like "Akin ni balik2 colour tu jugak yang dia pilih. Beli baju sendiri pun sama jugak. Cuba pilih cam biru ke hijau ke pulak" And I was like "Maaa!! Tau je colour Akin cmne kan.." And we both laughed je. Oh I miss shopping with mama. ;( And that makes me realised too. Baju aku ni balik2 colour tuuu jeee.. My wardrobe need a makeover,pronto!(alasan nak ngabehkan duit) -_-"

May 10, 2011

Homagad my 3rd year is heading to an end. YEAY!





Apr 11, 2011

Bila bosan dan (sedikit) rindu

Being far apart from your loved one SUCK! So me & Bipbip have this sort of to-do list of whatever things that cross our minds. These are a few of them..

1. Fly a kite

2. Picnic by the river

3. Take Milly for a walk

4. Learn how to eat TAPAI (since me no likey this thing)

5. Bicycle riding

6. Disco skating

 7. Go trekking on Broga.

8. Lomentik anniversary dinner *kurr3*

(Sila abaikan gambar kerana empunya badan teramat kuatlah berangan tidak mungkin akan berlaku)

...and the list go on and on.

Until then.


Apr 1, 2011

Sizzler Ranch

Ini adalah salah satu tempat where me and Hibari suka 'memakankan' diri di Mangalore ni. Asal tanya 'OK geng malam ni nak makan mana?', maka secara otomatisnya one of us pasti akan memberi idea bernas 'Jom Sizzler! Dah lama kita tak makan sana' - walhal baru je Jumaat lepas pekena Chicken Satellite dekat sana! Brrrr~ itulah kami. Sangat mencintakan Sizzler Ranch ni. HAHA.

Maybe sebab kadang2 tu dah muak makan nasik kot. Kadang2 tu masing2 semua perasan tekak omputih tu yang nk pekena steak pulak tu kot.. And almost everytime kami pegi sana, kami akan camwhore. Buat tempat tu macam sendiri yang punya! We even call it 'Hibari episode @ Sizzler Ranch'. Tah hape kesengalan la kan kawan2 aku ni. Aihh.

Sebenarnya malam ni pun ktorg nak pegi makan sana lagi. Sebab hari tu aku & Asma temankan Kak Ila & Kak Wanie makan kat sana. And I did upload pics dekat sana. Time tu pulak si Zati kena chicken pox. Meleleh air liur mak cik tu tengok ktorg makan sana. Haha sorry la yang. Dia pun dah sihat sekarang so malam ni Hibari akan berepisod lagi lah di Sizzler Ranch! Adehhh.. Cam Geng Bas Sekolah pulak kan nak ada nama. But that's what we call ourselves. And we're happieeeeeeeeyyy!!!

Al-kisahnya satu ketika dahulu Hibari was known as Hibari 4 aje. Walaupun namanya aje ada '4' kat hujung tapi ktorg ada 5 org sebenarnya. Time tu hanya ada Asma, Diyana, MunaLiyana & me je. Ktorg sgt addicted dgn cerita korea Hana Kimi  that time. To those yang pun layan cite tu dulu korg tau la mana dtg Hibari 4 tu. HEH! Hibari 4 is a group of girls yang ketua dia bernama Hibari and dia ada 4 lagi konco2 di bwhnya. Semua pmpn ni gedik2 belaka. Especially bila ada boys. BUT! That is what they are in that cite la.. NOT US OK! We simply called ourselves that out of nowhere je. Maybe bcz there are 5 of us kot. So cam sama la.. Duhh!

Bila lama2 berkawan makin lama makin kenal & rapat dgn 3 org lg budak senget - Fatin, Hawa & Zati. So kat sini kalau mana2 aku nak ajak geng lepak diorg ni je la yang aku leh ajak. They are the people who I can depend on. Yang leh sama2 cerita benda happy sama2 leh cerita benda sedih. Sometimes we got our own dramas tu. But what the heck? We still lebing2 each other wann.. Hehe. 

I hope this friendship will last till the end of our lives. Syg sangat diorg ni. They have been such good companies for the past two and a half year kat Mangalore ni. If not bcz of them there will be a boring me. Haih. Love u all girlfriends!

Drooling yet?? HEHE

p/s: mana lagi nak cari steak yang sgt cheap & boleh tahan sedap if not in Mangalore. Im sure gonna miss this place one day. Wow! What a confession! Hehehe

Mar 18, 2011

Jom kawen?

Bercinta bagai nak rak!

I bet everybody must've heard or told anyone about this. Dah lama tak bump into this sentence. It ran into my mind all of a sudden when I found out that someone I know broke up with her bf. I feel sorry for them though. But what else can we do kan if thats already part of what ALLAH had planned for us. Just take it positively kan.

Im in my early 20s. Yes. Have I already reached that age where I need to think about marriage? That age yang orang berlumba2 nak kahwin, lumba2 nak tunang, lumba2 nak buat anak. Like seriouslyyyy??? I guess most people at my age are more mature nowadays. Thats why they end up settling down at such tender age kot. They already know what their life going to be like. I envy you people lah! Im not like that lagi kottt.. Maybe I think Im too young for all this. Well at least I feel young. Bhahaha.

Actually, to think about it the religion way, memanglah bagus kan perkahwinan tu cause it menghalalkan perkara2 yang haram between two opposite sex rather than pergaulan bebas like many budak2 do nowadays. Zina can be in any form. Even to miss someone berlebih2an pun dah kira zina hati. Thats what I heard lah but Im sure its true. Im not a good person myself neither to even talk about this cause Im just like other normal humanbeing, who tends to do mistakes in life. Sometimes I need people to remind me of what Im doing wrong. 

My parents had a failed marriage once. And I witnessed everything that happened to them. Im sure none of them want the same thing happen to me too. I guess thats why my baba always being too protective over me especially when Im befriending boys. He once told me that he never wants to see me got hurt like he did. Which I think is pretty sad and sweet at the same time. Eheh. But I salute them both. They never abandon me & my siblings. They still give all the love and care they can provide until today. 

How does it feel when you lost hope in love? Depressing huh? It must take a pretty looong time to get up and build up the trust again kan. Aih mintak jauh la benda2 macam tu. Scary wehh.. To those yang never had those feelings, you're lucky. To those yang pernah, sabor je la kan. Heh. Yang penting dont forget to go back to where we belong. To ALLAH. Pray so that we be strong.

I never have a thought of when the exact time Im gonna get married. Asal tah. Maybe I havent got the excitement yet kot. Maybe takde siapa nak I kot. Haha. To all yang gonna get married any time soon, I wish you all the great and brighter life ahead with your future spouse! Woohoooooo!!! (sedikit jeles)

Someone told me, the right person comes when the right time comes. Percaya je pada jodoh. Everything gonna fall into the right places eventually pun kan. Just pray to God. So yes, lets just believe in that.

Okay2 just to make myself feel better. Kalau tak kahwin boleh bangun lambat2, tak payah susah2 masak sedap2, tak payah basuh baju laki sendiri, tak payah dengar ckp sape2. Heh confirm takde siapa nak kahwin ngan aku pas ni. LOL.

Until then. Toodles.

Mar 14, 2011

So sad, so sad.. Its a sad, sad situation..


Just got back from class with an aching body all over. Yesterday we had an intercollege netball match. MaKSIMa - thats what they called it. Basically its an all-Malaysian event. They'd thrown a netball match for the girls and futsal for the guys. Hope it'll be an annual event for us people in Mangalore. Its great when you can mingle with everybody from other colleges. Despite that it was all fun and sun. Im all tanned over again now. I was pitch black after last December holiday. After God-knows-what whitening cream I spat on my face, now its a no-use-no-more. Im happy that Im 'bronze' now. Deyyum.

Ok2 lets not make this sound like a diary or something. Drama happens all the time, am I right? Its just the matter of you know it is coming or not. Same goes to moi. I believe everybody had their times when they cant control whatever come out from their mouth. Like as if you were actually talking to yourself but accidentally it blurted out from your throat out of nowhere. That can be hilarious or embarrassing or worst hurt other people's feelings. 

I'd like to talk more about the latter part. Sometimes when people get too tense or too confused they dont know how to control themselves, they tend to channel their anger to other person instead. It is ok when you know who are you talking to. It is ok when you know how to use proper words. But it is not ok when you simply shout straight to the face.

"10% of conflicts is due to difference in opinion and 90% is due to wrong tone of voice"  

I couldnt agree more with this. Whether you want to point out your opinion or other people wrongdoing why not try say it the polite way. It will save you much energy and will not cost you any hassle on the later days.

But try putting yourself in that situation. Emotional can conquer thoughts way faster than our mind. Sometimes we are not aware of what we say when that happen. Isnt this world be a better place if everybody learn how to take charge of their emotion. No more heartbreak, no more disappointment. All live happily ever after. 

To be frank, Im also a victim of this unfair,terrible,relationship-destructive misfit. I cant help being my true self - being way too honest sometimes it hurts. Personally said, I have those people who are care enough asking me to change some part of my life. Though it can be hard at times when people seemed to be complaining about me. But mind me, Im changing. I try to improve myself each and everyday. Im truly sorry to those whom I hurt. I hope it is not too late for me to apologize to you.

Everytime when you feel like everything in the world turns against you, just remember to take a step back and breathe. Breathe and then think. Think before you say. Say it right. Wouldnt it be nice when you get it right?

Mar 2, 2011

Kita tak sebulu

Judgy mudgy little smudgy. Has anyone ever felt so tired of being judged at? Everytime you make a mistake, then someone would judge you stuff yang sometimes you feel like "Huh?? Ape hal pulak?" Im so sick of it!

Let me give you an example. You know you're gonna be busy for the weekend with own stuff like, I dont know maybe beli stok2 makanan or what not kan, then suddenly your friends ask you out for picnic etc. Although you really wanted to go with them but you only got that day to shop your own stuff etc etc. You had to turn down their offer la kan. Then all of a sudden you dgr ada mulut2 puaka cakap "Ala dia tu konon je ada hal la apa padahal nanti bawak masuk laki dalam rumah". Something like that la kan. Bengang jugak kan sedikit sebanyak when other people being a smart-ass over you.

Im just saying sometimes we really need not to judge something or someone before you really know whats going on. Plus tak ke tu namanya buruk sangka kat orang? Kan dah berdosa di situ.

I have friends from all paths of life, let it be sealim-alim manusia or sesetan-setannya. But I never had yang perompak, pembunuh yet la in my list. Heh.

Its nice to know that different people has their own way of thinking, way of talking, way of style, way of intrepeting things. Plus we can pretty much know how their background is like when we observe them thoroughly. Sometimes we come across people having a total opposite idea that what you have. That depends on how well you manage to maintain your relationship with that person. Memang susah nak jumpa orang sebulu dgn kita, memang tak semua orang sekepala dgn kita. But at least we can respect them and just shut up. 

Kadang2 I feel glad that Im here now in India. Not anywhere else where all those white people at. Strugling for my degree. Spending most of my youth time being away from home sweet home KL. I thank God Im not surrounded by all those hooligans yang kaki party, kaki minum, macam2 kaki lagi la.

Some of my friends yang lucky enough to go study abroad to places like US, Aussie etc they got terikut2 dgn budaya kat sana. Im not saying they are bad people. I really dont. And Im not proud of them publicly showing what they did on last night party whatsoever. If Im good enough I would have adviced them, but sadly Im not. So better if I just shut up. After all Im less than perfect myself either.

What I do believe is, you never know why or whats going on with other's life, so why be so judgemental kan? The most important thing is that you know them personally and appreciate whats there deep inside. They might not be as alim as you tutup sini, tutup sana, maybe they got other good qualities in them too. I know some would say, kita ada tanggungjawab nak nasihatkan dia, but to me, not all people sesuai nak nasihatkan orang. You can always find some other way to make that person realize of their wrong-doings, not making them feel deserted or treat them as if diorang je yang salah banyak buat dosa, kau sorang je banyak pahala.

Memang betul, bila tengah depressed orang selalu nasihat ingat Tuhan, jangan lupa Tuhan. But what if his/her iman is not as tegar as yours. You cannot aspect them to change as what you may like. Its such a shame if you just keep on judging them, outcasting them rather than guiding them & befriending them. Its just making you a smaller person for acting as if you were a God and worst is when you bad-talk about it to other people.

This is just a reminder for myself and whoever who read this. Just think about it. We might not like being judged at so why we do that to others too.

Feb 22, 2011

All time favourite

That one person I hope to be mine till the end. 

Feb 11, 2011

I wanna go homeeeee...

(Why in the world does this hidious four-letter word exist??)

First of all. I wasnt in the mood of updating my blog lately because of certain reasons. And I spent too much time doing F.R.I.E.N.D.S reruns every now and then. I kinda like addicted to them since then. Dulu2 tak berapa follow sgt with the series. But now after more than a decade baru terhegeh2 repeat the series from Season 1!

Second of all. Yeayyyyy!! -as that four-letter word starting to bug into my time(of watching more F.R.I.E.N.D.S- I am proudly to announce Im turning to be a NERD!! Well maybe for the meantime. Idk. However early I started to revise for the exam, I ended up being average je. Kinda pissed me off everytime. Any good idea of studying for exam? *sigh*

Third thing is, my brother's birthday is on this Sunday. It happened to be that my bestfriend, Na was also born on the same date as my brother. I sent him a parcel last week. Just a little something from Nike Store. I hope he'll gets it before Sunday. 

Anddd.. My parents anniversary is on the 14th! Yeap its Valentine's, alright. Never been a Valentine's-day-freak before. So na-ah. Not feeling anything for the  so-called lovers' day. I made a delivery for my parents too. I hope they might love them. Wish I can be home giving them hugs & kisses on their anniversary day. Bummer. 


Oh ohhh! Toodles~

ps: I bunked the classes whole day. FULLSTOP.

Jan 26, 2011

Silalah layan kepoyoan aku ni jap. =B

Hahahaha ok tetiba je gila gelak sensorg kannn...

Aku tergatal godek2 belog aku ni haa.. Maklumlah lom pakar lagi dgn benda alah ni. Member aku bilang nape x buleh nak tgk belog aku. Rupa2nya semalam aku gatai tangan g tukar blogspot address aku tu. Maka sesiapa yang berminat nak follow balik belog aku ni(pitam aku baca) silalah follow kembali from alamat kat bawah ni. Hik2 (gelak gedik siket) 


Jan 25, 2011

Kak Ruza's leaving away

Hadoi laa.. Sudah pening. Perut kosong. Akibat malas masak. Sanggupku tunggu delivery yang tah abad bila mau sampai dari menapak masuk ke dapur tumis bawang. Aihhhh~ *membebelbebel*

Esok cuti yeayyyy!! India Republic Day. Whatever janji aku takyah g sekolah. Sebab esok cutilah aku hari ini ponteng setengah hari. Muahahaha tak rasa bersalah pun. Memang niat nak memontengkan diri pun. Quota Amalgam I dah abes so Im very the malas lah nak pergi itu posting. Rasa lama la sikit cuti dari orang lain kan kalau ponteng posting petang tadi. Teehee~

Pening ni pening! Dari siang tak makan apa. Eh2 tipuuu... Lepas class Surgery tadi aku ngan Mek pergi makan parota kat canteen. Tapi sekeping je.. Mana mampu nak bagi tenaga sepanjang hari! Balik-balik posting dalam 12pm. Ingat nak singgah terus rumah Kak Ruza tapi call2 dia pulak tak de kat rumah. Aku pun balik la Lobo tercinta ni.

1.30pm gi rumah Kak Ruza @ Cik Bebeq. Today's the last day I meet her here. She's going back to Malaysia dah with her family. It has been nice knowing her. Very talkative, very funny, very nice also. She was here sebab husband dia, Abang Apiz tu kerja kat sini. Diorang ada anak dua, Haiqal & Sofia. They both are totally cute. Memang ikut mama papa lah muka diorang. Im gonna miss those kids. Hihi bila la nak ada anak sendiri?

Seronok pulak tengok dia packing barang2 tadi. Bila pulak lah nak sampai time aku nak balik Malaysia for good ni wehhh?? Aish cant wait! Tak sabar nak beramb dari tempat penuh debu ni. Haha. 

Aihh aku dah pening sangat nih. Nasib baik elok2 aku nk abes kan naip2 ni terus delivery sampai. Bagussss.. Ok abes. Aku nak melantak.


Oh ni ada sikit gambar kunang-kunangan ngan Cik Bebeq kite ni..

Ida,Mek & me with the kids, Haiqal & Sofia. 


During her last few days in India.

Jan 24, 2011

New day. New life.

Alhamdulillah.. Emosi kian stabil. Harap this decision I made will pay off at the end of the day. Im praying to Allah that He will give me strength to handle this. Ya Allah Kau permudahkanlah perjalanan hidupku. Kau berikanlah aku peluang untuk menghirup nafas baru. Bantulah aku dalam membuat pilihan. Amin.

Jan 16, 2011

Weekend went sooo fast!

Woahh! Gila lama x update blog ni. Well oh well life's been busy. Ceh. ;)

Just got back from Bangalore this morning. Went to Wonder La with them girls. Biasalah bila trlintas je kat kepala ada plan baik tup2 terus pegi. Haha thats us. No need so much time to plan on something.

Anyhow yesterday was quite fun. Despite sharing the pool with hundreds of tempes(Indians). Which was kinda gross to even rethink about it. Air dia keruh2 je kan. Ahhaaaiiiii.. Hilang selera nak makan!

But the park was great. Boleh la untuk orang yg dah lama tak jejak Sunway Lagoon. The rides there were beyond awesome! I screamed my heart out there. Hehe best la jugak. I always loved being spinned & twisted upside down. Have you ever watched the movie Richie Rich? I always adore the house in that movie. They even have their own roller coaster in their yard. (And even their own McDonald's!) - berangan kejap mana tau besok2 dah kaya leh wat roller coaster sendiri. :)

Hihi check out the new swimsuit.

Anyways.. Back to earth. Tomorrow is Monday. So I better go start hit the books. Exam is in February. Sudah2 la tu kan average marks. Lets go zoom2 with the studies. 3rd year BDS.. Distinction, perhaps? InsyaAllah.