Mar 18, 2011

Jom kawen?

Bercinta bagai nak rak!

I bet everybody must've heard or told anyone about this. Dah lama tak bump into this sentence. It ran into my mind all of a sudden when I found out that someone I know broke up with her bf. I feel sorry for them though. But what else can we do kan if thats already part of what ALLAH had planned for us. Just take it positively kan.

Im in my early 20s. Yes. Have I already reached that age where I need to think about marriage? That age yang orang berlumba2 nak kahwin, lumba2 nak tunang, lumba2 nak buat anak. Like seriouslyyyy??? I guess most people at my age are more mature nowadays. Thats why they end up settling down at such tender age kot. They already know what their life going to be like. I envy you people lah! Im not like that lagi kottt.. Maybe I think Im too young for all this. Well at least I feel young. Bhahaha.

Actually, to think about it the religion way, memanglah bagus kan perkahwinan tu cause it menghalalkan perkara2 yang haram between two opposite sex rather than pergaulan bebas like many budak2 do nowadays. Zina can be in any form. Even to miss someone berlebih2an pun dah kira zina hati. Thats what I heard lah but Im sure its true. Im not a good person myself neither to even talk about this cause Im just like other normal humanbeing, who tends to do mistakes in life. Sometimes I need people to remind me of what Im doing wrong. 

My parents had a failed marriage once. And I witnessed everything that happened to them. Im sure none of them want the same thing happen to me too. I guess thats why my baba always being too protective over me especially when Im befriending boys. He once told me that he never wants to see me got hurt like he did. Which I think is pretty sad and sweet at the same time. Eheh. But I salute them both. They never abandon me & my siblings. They still give all the love and care they can provide until today. 

How does it feel when you lost hope in love? Depressing huh? It must take a pretty looong time to get up and build up the trust again kan. Aih mintak jauh la benda2 macam tu. Scary wehh.. To those yang never had those feelings, you're lucky. To those yang pernah, sabor je la kan. Heh. Yang penting dont forget to go back to where we belong. To ALLAH. Pray so that we be strong.

I never have a thought of when the exact time Im gonna get married. Asal tah. Maybe I havent got the excitement yet kot. Maybe takde siapa nak I kot. Haha. To all yang gonna get married any time soon, I wish you all the great and brighter life ahead with your future spouse! Woohoooooo!!! (sedikit jeles)

Someone told me, the right person comes when the right time comes. Percaya je pada jodoh. Everything gonna fall into the right places eventually pun kan. Just pray to God. So yes, lets just believe in that.

Okay2 just to make myself feel better. Kalau tak kahwin boleh bangun lambat2, tak payah susah2 masak sedap2, tak payah basuh baju laki sendiri, tak payah dengar ckp sape2. Heh confirm takde siapa nak kahwin ngan aku pas ni. LOL.

Until then. Toodles.

Mar 14, 2011

So sad, so sad.. Its a sad, sad situation..


Just got back from class with an aching body all over. Yesterday we had an intercollege netball match. MaKSIMa - thats what they called it. Basically its an all-Malaysian event. They'd thrown a netball match for the girls and futsal for the guys. Hope it'll be an annual event for us people in Mangalore. Its great when you can mingle with everybody from other colleges. Despite that it was all fun and sun. Im all tanned over again now. I was pitch black after last December holiday. After God-knows-what whitening cream I spat on my face, now its a no-use-no-more. Im happy that Im 'bronze' now. Deyyum.

Ok2 lets not make this sound like a diary or something. Drama happens all the time, am I right? Its just the matter of you know it is coming or not. Same goes to moi. I believe everybody had their times when they cant control whatever come out from their mouth. Like as if you were actually talking to yourself but accidentally it blurted out from your throat out of nowhere. That can be hilarious or embarrassing or worst hurt other people's feelings. 

I'd like to talk more about the latter part. Sometimes when people get too tense or too confused they dont know how to control themselves, they tend to channel their anger to other person instead. It is ok when you know who are you talking to. It is ok when you know how to use proper words. But it is not ok when you simply shout straight to the face.

"10% of conflicts is due to difference in opinion and 90% is due to wrong tone of voice"  

I couldnt agree more with this. Whether you want to point out your opinion or other people wrongdoing why not try say it the polite way. It will save you much energy and will not cost you any hassle on the later days.

But try putting yourself in that situation. Emotional can conquer thoughts way faster than our mind. Sometimes we are not aware of what we say when that happen. Isnt this world be a better place if everybody learn how to take charge of their emotion. No more heartbreak, no more disappointment. All live happily ever after. 

To be frank, Im also a victim of this unfair,terrible,relationship-destructive misfit. I cant help being my true self - being way too honest sometimes it hurts. Personally said, I have those people who are care enough asking me to change some part of my life. Though it can be hard at times when people seemed to be complaining about me. But mind me, Im changing. I try to improve myself each and everyday. Im truly sorry to those whom I hurt. I hope it is not too late for me to apologize to you.

Everytime when you feel like everything in the world turns against you, just remember to take a step back and breathe. Breathe and then think. Think before you say. Say it right. Wouldnt it be nice when you get it right?

Mar 2, 2011

Kita tak sebulu

Judgy mudgy little smudgy. Has anyone ever felt so tired of being judged at? Everytime you make a mistake, then someone would judge you stuff yang sometimes you feel like "Huh?? Ape hal pulak?" Im so sick of it!

Let me give you an example. You know you're gonna be busy for the weekend with own stuff like, I dont know maybe beli stok2 makanan or what not kan, then suddenly your friends ask you out for picnic etc. Although you really wanted to go with them but you only got that day to shop your own stuff etc etc. You had to turn down their offer la kan. Then all of a sudden you dgr ada mulut2 puaka cakap "Ala dia tu konon je ada hal la apa padahal nanti bawak masuk laki dalam rumah". Something like that la kan. Bengang jugak kan sedikit sebanyak when other people being a smart-ass over you.

Im just saying sometimes we really need not to judge something or someone before you really know whats going on. Plus tak ke tu namanya buruk sangka kat orang? Kan dah berdosa di situ.

I have friends from all paths of life, let it be sealim-alim manusia or sesetan-setannya. But I never had yang perompak, pembunuh yet la in my list. Heh.

Its nice to know that different people has their own way of thinking, way of talking, way of style, way of intrepeting things. Plus we can pretty much know how their background is like when we observe them thoroughly. Sometimes we come across people having a total opposite idea that what you have. That depends on how well you manage to maintain your relationship with that person. Memang susah nak jumpa orang sebulu dgn kita, memang tak semua orang sekepala dgn kita. But at least we can respect them and just shut up. 

Kadang2 I feel glad that Im here now in India. Not anywhere else where all those white people at. Strugling for my degree. Spending most of my youth time being away from home sweet home KL. I thank God Im not surrounded by all those hooligans yang kaki party, kaki minum, macam2 kaki lagi la.

Some of my friends yang lucky enough to go study abroad to places like US, Aussie etc they got terikut2 dgn budaya kat sana. Im not saying they are bad people. I really dont. And Im not proud of them publicly showing what they did on last night party whatsoever. If Im good enough I would have adviced them, but sadly Im not. So better if I just shut up. After all Im less than perfect myself either.

What I do believe is, you never know why or whats going on with other's life, so why be so judgemental kan? The most important thing is that you know them personally and appreciate whats there deep inside. They might not be as alim as you tutup sini, tutup sana, maybe they got other good qualities in them too. I know some would say, kita ada tanggungjawab nak nasihatkan dia, but to me, not all people sesuai nak nasihatkan orang. You can always find some other way to make that person realize of their wrong-doings, not making them feel deserted or treat them as if diorang je yang salah banyak buat dosa, kau sorang je banyak pahala.

Memang betul, bila tengah depressed orang selalu nasihat ingat Tuhan, jangan lupa Tuhan. But what if his/her iman is not as tegar as yours. You cannot aspect them to change as what you may like. Its such a shame if you just keep on judging them, outcasting them rather than guiding them & befriending them. Its just making you a smaller person for acting as if you were a God and worst is when you bad-talk about it to other people.

This is just a reminder for myself and whoever who read this. Just think about it. We might not like being judged at so why we do that to others too.